Maybe this is the upside of not being a constant success.

The fall isn't ever harder than I think. I welcome it like an old childhood friend while everyone in the sky hits the floor and shatters.

That's what you get when you have "expectations", bitch. Stop thinking that your her support system, too. Because you're the main source of the pain. You and your goddamn pedestal. Step off, fuck off, and stop deluding yourself into thinking those around you really cared.

You're the only pushing them away, and I don't know how much funnier it can get watching. I almost want to cringe instead.

I hope you end up at a dead-end job reading all those damn novels and reciting all those damn big words you thought would get you somewhere.

No one ever cared.

So...after being totally discouraged from the ELC meeting,

I think I can have straight A's this semester. How nice. No fucking point considering the smartass people who don't NEED fucking automatic UC admission are going to fucking get the fucker, anyway.

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135.

The first thing I will pay off when I get a job.
Sorry, Mom, Dad, and Yayo. I'm really sorry.

Someone.

Please. I hate this.

For some people, it's manure,
For others, it's dirty diapers,
Urine, feces, sewage water, rotten fruit,




But for me, peoples' happiness tends to nauseate me the most.

Given.

This free time is a given.

And although it's given to you and me, at least you know what to do with it. At least you're grateful.

I've complained and whined and screamed this whole time, and now that I have it...I have no idea what to do with it.

Actually, I do know. I'm just too scared of everything to do something to make myself happy.

I'm sorry for everyone who assumes this is an interesting or hoped this would be an interesting blog. Because it isn't. It's just a way for me to whine and continually be ungrateful, so unless you want to give me shit (which is completely deserved, don't worry), you may go on your way. Sorry for wasting your time.

I laugh.

NYU, UPenn, and now a Yale letter.

And I laugh again.

These people who send letters are sadistic little bitches. Trying to give random ass people hope and whatnot.